Annoying rib and shoulder blad pain and what that means to me..

So I went to see my doctor yesterday. I informed him that I can hardly lie on my right side because of severe pain in my ribs that I have been experiencing (or getting worse) for about a month. He gave me an "OH really?" So now I have to get a bone scan and chest x ray on Monday. I hope that it is nothing, but every little pain scares the crap out of me. I'm telling you, reading the cancer books puts fear in me. Pain can mean bone mestasis, my doctor said that I could have bone necropsy from the radiation, I hope it's that. I don't know exactly what bone necropsy is, but it is better than bone mestasis. At this point I don't care how much they scan me, it is waaay better to be safe than sorry.
The leaves are really beautiful here still, they will probably be gone by next week. I laugh at everyone here in their parkas and scarves, it's still in the 50's! Ed and I are going back to Iowa for about a week in early December from the 6th-13th. Hopefully we will be able to make the rounds to see everyone, if not, I'll apologize now. Hope everyone is well!
Missy

My racing mind...

So my sister sent me and email telling me that I should keep updating my blog. The only reason I was really doing it was so that people who don't see me on a regular basis could keep up on my health. It turns out that people read it because they liked it too..so here I go.

Not too much has happened in the months since I wrote last. I had my second recheck and a freakout because the MRI found something 'strange' around my surgery site. After an ultrasound and biopsy, everything turned out okay. Then I just freaked out because of the bills, I still don't have a job ( Iknow I'm a loser). Luckily through the hospital where I go for my rechecks they have medicall assistance and everything was taken care of. So I don't have to worry about medical bills for six months.
Ed and I were looking at his some pictures from his sister's wedding last night. Everything looked so beautiful. I got a big case of 'if only I hadn't gotten cancer'. I got depressed because, if I hadn't gotten cancer, I would be like a normal bride freaking out about her wedding this weekend. I feel really selfish for changing dates. If Ed had his way we would go to the courthouse today and get married. I would do that, but I'm selfish and want to wait until I have reconstruction surgery. Ed has been so supportive through all of this, I want everything to be perfect for the both of us. So anyway, I have no idea when we will have the wedding. I was thinking spring next year, but I don't know how healed I will be since I can't have surgery until late February. One thing I do know for sure, we will get married here in NC and then have another ceremony and party in IA. The wedding here will be small, if people can come great, if not, I won't be surprised or hurt because of the "redo" in IA. So there it is, nothing else new to report, except Ed bought me a new car that I love love love!!!!
Missy